Empty In Between

In one day, I managed to pack up plans for my entire weekend. For Mother's Day, I'll obviously be spending some time with my own mother, but that's actually only going to take place for the morning. Later on in the day, my child care class set up a visiting to an orphanage to spend the day with children without mothers.

Tomorrow afternoon, I have an interview to join a summer program where I can actually be an assistant caretaker at a day care not too far from the cafe. As for Saturday, I'll be babysitting my aunt's baby. So I'll be a busy bee this weekend~

Exams are nearing too, so I have to be getting on that when I'm through with all these projects. But it's fine. Everything seems to be alright.

[*delete*]

Ignore last night's post, if you managed to catch sight of that. =_=

It's been a while, hmm? o_o

I don't have much to say though. Except ... Libby's coming back for her final visit. And this pretty much determines everything for me, so I'm a bit freaked out. ^^;

My mock entrance exam for Tokyo U is tomorrow. I'm probably even more nervous about that though. I guess it's not that bad, considering that no matter how I do, it doesn't really count as a real exam (although I have heard stories that getting an absolute great score would allow you to use it as your real grade, but that's unlikely).

Either way, just one more year to go. It's kind of hard to believe I've gotten this fair, but--well, not just me, really. I've noticed a lot of people have more extremely forward over the years and sometimes it may not look like much, but with every little action, we're just one step closer into a complete transformation.

I'm probably not making much sense, but ...

And I've gotten this idea to use Layla as a girl's name if I ever have a daughter or five. It's a really pretty name~ ^^

To anyone out there, curiosity's got the best of me. I've come to realize I really ... dunno a lot of people that well, unfortunately, so ... well, I guess this is one way I hope to change that a little. So if you aren't busy, just fill out the questions. ^^;

( question meme. )

Ugh, I hate birds. =_=

Tonight'll hopefully be great. Lots of food coming our way. And lots of strawberry cake too~ So we'll probably be gaining a couple of pounds tonight. Not good, but, meh, it might be worth it. I wouldn't say no to cake. u-u

It's gonna be a long weekend for me, since no school until Monday. We don't celebrate the holdiay in general in this country, but apparently some teachers and students do, so they gave us the two days off. Besides, lots of big practice exams coming up soon, so they figured a break would be nice. No big plans though, so I'll probably just spend the time studying.

( Alien Situation )

And again, birds suck. Especially chickens. They're out to get me. ;-;

There's a lot on my mind, so ... I'll split this up.

( Children and Teaching. )

( The Alien War. )

( The Consequences of Misunderstandings. )

-sigh- Sorry for all of this. It's more of just my random thoughts. I just felt like I should put them somewhere. In other cases, everything's been alright. Though I never want a repeat of sledding and island girls again. Log cabins are nice things though.

And alcohol is bad for you, kay?

Dinner with my dad today.
-d00m-
My mom's apparently having some "girls' night out" with some friends of hers, and my dad felt lonely. So then after much begging from him, I finally agreed to have some "bonding" time with him on the condition that he wouldn't criticize or even mention my relationship with Ryou.

Overprotective fathers can be a pain.

Ouch, papercut. D:

Grades are being finalized for the first quarter, and it seems like I've been on track with all of them. Also amazing how my highest grade point average is in Child Care. ^^; But with these grades, my counselor tells me that if I can continue on this track, things will end up looking really well for me, and perhaps Tokyo U could be a possibility after all. But now they'll be throwing a bunch of practice exams at me for the next couple of weeks. So I'll have to study hard for those. =/

Oh, and I've been scheduled to take care of Libby again in January, so that's ... something to look forward to? She was a pest, but I did enjoy taking care of her. That'll be the second run out of three, since they want to test out how well we improve throughout the year. That means, I'll probably get her a third time at around May.

Everything else seems to be looking good, too. My dad hasn't attacked anyone since his visit to the cafe, so at least that isn't a worry. Surprisingly, though, things are looking pretty calm on the surface, and that kind of scares me, because I kind of feel something could go wrong at any moment. I won't look to into it, though. I'm probably just being paranoid.

Tomorrow's Halloween. No idea what the plans are, though. If anything, I'll most likely be dressing up in that witch costume we found in Plum's box. I can't believe the year's almost over in two months, though. I guess since I was pretty lost for most of it, it didn't feel so long. Then again, a lot has happened in the past few months alone. A lot.

But I don't know. Despite the fact that things are still messy right now, I'm not feeling so down. I don't think I've felt this good in such a long time. I haven't run away from anything, and I've felt more confidence in myself. Plus, I have someone truly amazing sticking beside me. Maybe things are just finally starting to make sense to me. Hmm. I can see clearly now the rain is gone?

So, anyhow, now there's ten eight left. I have to think up something good. :O

This has been ... quite a week.

My dad's suddenly with this whole request for me to move back home. He's whining on how much he "misses his little girl" and that he doesn't get to spend enough time with me, despite the fact that I visit him three to four times a week. -_-; I guess his suspicions of things are getting to him. Although, if he did find out I was currently living in an apartment on my own, he'd definitely drag me home. x_x

I told my counselor that I wanted to go to Tokyo U. He laughed. >_> So, it's an out-of-reach goal, but why do people have to be that honest? Nothing's impossible, right? There's a chance for me if I could work hard enough for it. And I haven't been doing so bad anyhow. So, well, I -could- do it. ._.

Anyhow, I'm up early, but I'm really tired. It's been a wild week, and Ryou's party yesterday was ... um ... well, it was quite unexpected. This just brings us back to the point that sugar should be banned from the cafe. At least if we use it, they should use a decent amount instead of 50 pounds of it in one cookie. I really don't want to see any more public shows from Ryou. =/

And I get way too easily convinced into things. x-x;

... I'm sorry. ._.

Grades were finalized on the Libby project today. And I did just fine~ ^^ They were actually impressed considering that it's only the first part. They let you have a shot with a child at the beginning of the year to see what you can do so far, and then at the end of the school year, we can take another shot at it. So I'll be seeing Libby again when the school year's over, but for now, apparently I took care of her really well. Of course, it's thanks to Ryou and the others that I was able to.

Pretty interesting weekend. I completely forgot how much of a pain riding a horse can be though. x_x But overall, it was a nice weekend. Although, I was informed that my next ice cream shipment would be coming in late. That kind of threw it all off. :/

All in all, everything seems to have calmed down a bit. I'm sure it's not all over just yet, but hopefully things are gonna get more sorted out. And why is my father constantly calling me claming his fatherly instincts are telling him something bad happened? X_X

So, Libby's gone. Really, I guess I'm kind of disappointed. As frustrating as she was with her constant crying and whining, I enjoyed the experience of it. Makes me kind of wonder what being a real mother will be like. Then again, I don't exactly expect that to happen anytime soon. x-x

Things are kind of crazy right now. Then again, when aren't they? I just hope everything could just kind of fall into place again and no one has to go through this anymore. It's been pretty hard on everyone and if we don't get this all sorted out soon, they could only end up completely falling apart.

I kind of wonder about things. With everything that's going on, I can't figure out if the timing's alright. Either way, I'm definitely certain things are going to change. What will change and how, I'm not sure, but ... well, it's more like everything'll change. For everyone.

Maybe. Maybe not.

Possibly. Or no.

Hmm hmm hmm.

I am getting so sick and tired of this.

Seriously, it's driving me mad at this point.

But the heck can I do about it?

I'm taking a "break" from work, but even so, I'm still doing work. I've started on a new project: cat charms. For those who didn't hear it's said that one takes a set of two cat charms, gives one to the person they love, keeps one for themself, and the two are bound together forever. And no, I did not make that up myself. x-X;

So, well, the first set I made has been given out. Although, in all honesty, I'm kind of beginning to believe that these two people don't really need the magic of the cat charms. I think, with or without, they're set. ^^;

Anyhow, school's starting up again next week. It's hard to believe I only have two years left. My parents keep asking me what I think about college. I guess I'd like to go, though I'm not definite on how that's gonna work out. My mom's given me brochures of good places to go, but they're all out of the city. I guess when it all comes down it, I really just want to stay here.

( yet another survey: a long one, at that. )

Well, we have a new "member of the family". Really, it just seems like Kisshu number two. ^^; He's actually really nice, although he seems to have some weird attachment to Gamu. No idea what that's all about. But he seems to like her, it's actually really cute. ^^

I've been working on new stuff lately. I've had a lot of requests and ideas, some I never would have thought of. I got a request for a Ryou plushie cosplaying as Mew Ichigo, so I decided to give that a shot. Only ... I found out it had been Plum would had requested it in the first place. x_x

And not much else is going on. Everyone seems to be doing better, although not everything is as great just yet. Haven't spoken to Daisuke since that day either. I hope he's doing alright. Marche said he'd look after him. :/

But all is okay! Everything will be better in no time! Everyone will be happy again sometime soon. I'm sure of it! ^^

I was reading this book, and the following excerpt just changed me entirely, I swear.

Be careful as crossing frozen water, alert as a Warrior on enemy ground. Be as courteous as a Guest, as fluid as a Stream. Be as shapeable as a block of wood, as receptive as glass. Don’t seek and don’t expect. Be patient and wait until your mud settles and your water is clear.

Act without doing, work without effort, think of the large as small and the many as few. Confront the difficult while it is easy, accomplish the great one step at a time. Don’t reach and you will find, if you run into trouble throw yourself toward it. Don’t cling to comfort and everything will be comfortable.

Failure is an opportunity. If you blame others, this is no end to blame. Fulfill your obligations, correct your mistakes. Do what you need to do and step away. Demand nothing and give all.

( surveeeeeey. )

I can't figure out why cooking is so difficult for me! Everyone else seems to have it figured out, and even if they're aren't total experts, they can steal manage to cook up something small. I really think I'm prone to disaster. At least that's a definite when it comes to the kitchen.

So, at least I know not to consider 'cook' as a new career choice. I don't think I'm quitting the knitting thing altogether, but really, it's alright to take a break once in a while, right? I didn't close the business down, and in fact, Sarah insisted on taking care of things while I put things on hold. Plum also volunteered to help out (though I'm really scared about allowing her to do so), so really, things are still going over there.

For now, I guess I'm waitressing at Café Mew Mew again? Although, I've never really seen much waitressing going on there lately, it's not like anyone ever gets anything done. Either way, at least that was one thing I was good at, despite how little it pays for all the things I get done on my own.

So, I suppose all is okay. For now, anyway. I'm not freaking out about anything, Ryou's a meanie as per usual, and the café's still a nutty place.

Oh, and of course, happy birthday, Gamu.

I am such an idiot.

Things are just so complicated. ._.

I'm stumped. D: